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martedì, dicembre 05, 2006
tis the season
i havent been ard for so long so here's a msg for you, if you're still reading this by chance. the spammers have pissed me off awhile back, i got too lazy to update BUT i've shifted to wordpress. merry xmas, ya'all ! cyas @ the new spot.
Gemstar blogged on 12/05/2006 01:17:00 AM
sabato, ottobre 21, 2006
the dam has burst
hey folks, been a loong time since i last popped by, being too caught up in the workings of this world.
and so everything has come to naught, bursting spectacularly into flames. or so i tend to dramatize. been horribly emotional turbulent these days, crying over the silliest of things. tired. despondaent. drained. jaded. it's the time of the month yes, but i guess i'd attribute everything else to the pressures of school-life. reallyreallyreally cant wait for the holidays to come, to let me gain some sense of normalcy.
and i've fallen ill, from the accumulated lack of sleep, fretting about assignments quizzes and projects... i don't know how/when/why i've became so uptight as such. the worse thing is the more i resist, the more i procrastinate and the whole evil cycle starts again.
and i guess i miss the company, the familiarity of friends once surrounding me. these days i find it hard-pressed to meet up with anyone at all. Or maybe i've been so lousy at managing my life and time that everything has turned around and bitten me, hard.
Gemstar blogged on 10/21/2006 05:37:00 PM
venerdì, luglio 28, 2006
WaNderLusT
Talking to jy online during wrk revived my passion for travelling or rather, beach-bumming, but then agn i refuse to credit him for tht. more like the travel bug has bit and i'm itch itch itchingg again.
The guy's in the midst of plans to bintan and/or tioman and am half-hoping i can tag along. Didn’t get to try stuff like the banana boat nor the jet ski the last time i went, so am uber tempted to go for another adventure….
Plans to visit bangkok w the bf and 2 other friends undergoing turbulance , cos the dad has placed his foot down. Grrr. Was super upset at his unreasonableness, maybe i should have just played my cards like i did the last year i.e just book the ferry tix ,accomodation and go ahead anyway.
But perhaps the last time was different, since it was so difficult to coordinate everyone's schedules with all 8 of us for the matter, plus the rarity of the boys having their blk leave together helped. tian shi di li ren he. Though i guess i wanted it pretty badly then to insist on going. And i suppose it wouldn't be gd for the organizer to not go after all the planning, wouldn't it? And was i glad it materialized, cos all of us did have the time of our lives there. Fond memories of that scrumptious seafood dinner on the first night, we were all starving and wolfed everything down. Stupidly missing the last bus from the shopping village Pasar Oleh Oleh to our resort, which left us stranded before hitching a ride fr kind strangers back. *phew* Our house by the sea. Body boarding for the first time in my life and that rush of adrenaline as the waves send you flying to the beach..
Making our DIY lunch which we TOOK AGES preparing with shaun as the head chef, totally cream pasta overload. Taking tht same kind stranger's trnspt out to a kelong the nxt evening with the guys dressing up to match us *lol* Listening to the band at their inhouse pub. Getting seasick whilst snorkelling and there was absolutely NOTHING to see in the murky waters. Swimming, swimming and more swimming. PRETENDING to play volleyball. teehee, hilarious stuff I miss bintan !
and…I'm yearning for another adventure before school starts ! *keeping fingers crossed*
Gemstar blogged on 7/28/2006 12:35:00 AM
lunedì, luglio 24, 2006
"Life Is Wonderful"
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la
It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful
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Really meaningful lyrics. I heart Jason Mraz ! sy was actually the 1 who introduced his music to me when he sent me the remedy, a few years ago.
Island life, love it. =) Spent an enjoyable day with the cca people at sentosa today. Honestly a happy, satisfying day... Nice macs bfast w the bf, returning my uniform (finally) to the staff and paying them a visit. Uncle Chan wanted to treat me lunch, but pity, had to go back to join the mic people. Had quite a few games, some fun some fast some silly. but yay, was really fun. i loved the HUGEEEEEEEE beachball, wonder where they bought it from. And my group easily came in first for amazing race because i knew the shortest routes to all the attractions. go me! hahaha. Ironically, i was super duper reluctant to show up in the first place but had to because my director half-conned me into going. Was telling my cousin, i don't lie fast enough. I absolutely hate playing orientation games, but i guess i did like what we did today. Was really all tired, wet, sandy and famished after all the activities, so much so i started to feel a lil migraine coming. Thankfully, he agreed to come pick me up and we had a really nice dinner at IKEA. teehee. meatballs and cranberry sauce! and the lip-smacking chicken wings, poached salmon. deliciously satisfying. =) then strolled arnd exploring the various knick-knacks, display rooms... i think i can happily live in one of the display sets in IKEA. Just feels so comfortable, almost like home.
oh and as an afternote: everyone should try Haagen Daz's newest flavour: Summer Berries. It's damn gooood ! The guy gave me a bit to sample, and i cldnt resist buying a cone after that and he was laughing at me, cos i was really licking the ice-cream stick clean, before reluctantly returning it to him for disposal. I'd recommend the Anchorpoint branch because their staff are really friendly and nice!
Gemstar blogged on 7/24/2006 12:12:00 AM
giovedì, luglio 20, 2006
White Oleander
'Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want , and not let the cattle stand in your way.'~ White Oleander, Janet Fitch
Perhaps its impossible to find someone who understands you whole, rather, someone who understands you best as much as circumstances allow. Although i'd think its a 2 way thing, how much you'd like someone to understand you is as much as how much of yourself you're willing to reveal to the other person. And this is sometimes done consciously, sometimes subconsciously, through your actions.
I suppose the nature of relationships is such that they're always in flux, one whom you might have shared a deep connection with a few years/days/months back, might not be applicable today. Simply because that with time and different experiences, people change and that's how you start to drift apart, and especially so when the common circumstances that bound you together cease to exist. Or if cracks in the differences of personalites which wasnt seemingly apparent at the beginning, start to appear. how fragile. so cherish those friendships while they last. The past does have its way of sneaking up on you, meeting those old friends, acquaintances in the random-est of ways and places, being close and then drifting apart again.
I don't know where this leads me, just some random musings i guess. Somewhat still drowsy after staying in bed for the whole day. Took an MC off work today and slept. and slept. never knew i could sleep so much but at least i don't feel feverish anymore.
Gemstar blogged on 7/20/2006 08:44:00 PM
venerdì, luglio 14, 2006
Love Story In Harvard
ooooooooooooh. just the latest show i'm crazy over. =) Set in Harvard Law School, the drama depicts the dreams, love, life of the 4 korean students studying abroad.
only onto episode 2 so far, but am uber happy watching it!
i wish Singapore's weather cool enough for us to dress like that. I dig that intellectual yuppie look.
heh. typical old-fashioned sweetness.
i LOVE the female lead. she has a gorgeous smile that will melt anyone's heart. really sweeeeeet character too.
the 2 couples.
ttfn. back to watching!
Gemstar blogged on 7/14/2006 12:52:00 AM
domenica, luglio 09, 2006
girls' night out
@ timbre to hangout with zoe and ros. the girl's finally back from aus for a visit! T'was great, been awhile since we last saw each other.
Somehow, even though its the holidays, everyone's busier then ever, and caught up in their own lives more so then before. I HAVENT SEEN ANY OF THE GIRLS AT ALL, cept for becks, kel and elisa after i came back fr. shanghai. and that was like, 2 mths ago?! and well, the cooking sessions with the hanabi gals, which stopped after i started wrking. boo. then again, after you start wrk, you treasure your wkends more and would really be pretty contented with bumming around at home.
Felt good catching up with these 2 babes i guess, the usual bickering (btw ros & zoe) and other girl-talk. pity our time together was cut short in order for us to catch the last bus/trains home.
and kinda continued our conversation via msn.
though i guess what a girl wants at the end of the day is that ever elusive sense of security. i suppose no matter how strongly independent we aspire to be, there are times we do wish to have someone we know we can depend on- to hold that bit of sky up for us, just for that short momment. And then that's when expectations of that ideal someone comes in. my 2 babes have quite a list according to them, lol.
Ambition, passion and drive among other things covered below...
*names will be changed to protect the innocent*
mango:
but i feel like he's v empty, doesnt have enough ambition, doesnt know the meaning of passion..
banana:
are all girls looking for that?
mango:
like, the feeling u have when you're in a cca
strawberry: (aka ME)
expl further?
mango: well i think i have more ambition than he does. damn sad.
mango: hmm if he likes me and i can like him back if its just simple like
mango: but things must be more sophisticated than that i think
mango: he's gotta be someone i admire
mango: Like, what if the 'like' dies off some day, and i'm left with just him and his personality?
mango: if he doesnt have qualities that i want, then there's nothing to join us right?
banana: v true.
strawberry: hmm yeah, i get what you mean.
Agreed, i would be attracted to someone with direction and ambition — someone who knows what they want out of life, seemingly. But tht's also because i'm still unsure as to what i want out of mine either, so it'd help if half of us knew where he's going.
Though for me its always been 3 "criteria" if you can call them that, of emotional, intellectual and physical intimacy that i can share with my guy. and ranked in that order too. Reality often deviates from the ideal i guess, there's never the perfect guy, now THAT would be too good to be true. =) Let's just say my boy and I getting together turned out to be a surprise to me. Not who I'd seen myself with, if i stuck to the list of ideals and expectations. Nevertheless, it's been an enjoyable ride so far. he continues to surprise, amuse, exasperate and find new ways to annoy me each time but at least I know he cares with the little things he does, and for now, that's really enough for me. Everybody, all together now, awww.
Gemstar blogged on 7/09/2006 10:44:00 PM
